First Entry

Hello everyone. It's been a while, huh? I've been busy with drum line and jazz band and normal band and junior youth symphony band and stuff....
So. Why did I decide to make a new blog? Because I hate the old me. And the old me made those blogs. The old me was annoying and simply weird. So I'd like to apologize right now if the old me has ever bothered you in any way.
But the thing is, I don't like the new me either. I have fallen into a depression. Nothing is fun anymore, I'm always empty, and I have a feeling of guilt which consumes me. I now hate life, yet I'm afraid of death. What if there's no place that'll take me? What if I end up with eternal slumber, filled with nothing without the ability to even think? I can't take it. Even if Heaven was real, I don't see how everybody can be happy. People sometimes go suicide because they can't take being around others, but there are people in heaven too, aren't there?
Well I'm not going to fill your head with my deep thoughts of death and after life, but I might bring it up every once and a while. Actually, I don't think people are even going to start following this blog. I just don't see that happening.
Sorry if I freaked you guys out with my sudden change of personality, but I can't help it. This is the new me. I can't even remember how this happened... much less why.
Well sorry, guys. If you don't like the new me... sorry, I can't change. I've tried. If you don't like the new me you can simply not follow...
Even if I get 0 followers I'm still going to write here occasionally since I need something to help clear my thoughts...
But if you do follow I won't post much because, again, I'm busy with a whole lot of stuff...
Bye.